Inside my head – internal dialogue I

inside_my_head1 ©miss ninja cookieSometimes i wish people could actually see inside my head, hear my every thought, watch the constant battle I’m fighting. A battle with myself, against myself, for myself? So they could actually understand what life looks like to me and that even though it may seem like there’s nothing to worry about on the outside, the darkness inside can be infinite. And they could hear that voice that never stops telling me „You’re juuuuust not (good) enough. And you’ll never be“. And then the other voice that says „But this can’t be it, this can’t be the end, there has to be something more i can do, something else i can try? Something that will finally make me loveable – or something that will make me believe that i already am?“

And then again, I don’t want anyone to be able to look inside my head. Because even though there’s hope (sometimes), it’s still kind of a scary place. And you don’t want to invite people to scary places, right?

Sorry, no German version today. Maybe later.

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  1. Schöne Gedanken!
    Manchmal kann man es auch einfach in Englisch besser ausdrücken :)

  2. Hm…very dark thoughts in your head. Maybe you need to struggle this impressions. The world ist not so dark as it seems. Let the sunshine in your heart and be happy about what you have. Even if it is health or friends or family. It is more than other people have.

    Best wishes Laura

  3. Good post however I was wanting to know if you could write
    a litte more on this topic? I’d be very grateful if you could elaborate a little bit further.
    Thank you!

    • melanie

      thank you :) there will definitely be more on this topic, my internal dialogue is neverending. it’s just hard to put it into words sometimes.

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